R.I.P.

basically since the new year all has been going alot better for me. but then one of my good friends passed o the 15th and i just kinda ignored it but then i went to the funeral. it was open casket and it hella shook me up. and i kinda had a break down right there in the morgue. he had barely turned 22 years old and he was shot. i think he was just mistaken for someone else cuz he wasnt reallt wrapped up in shit like that. i cant find many good pictures of him and am trying to draw his portrait and its not working out cuz am doing most from memory before it starts to fade. i mostly known older people that have died or young people i wasnt especially close to at the time but i practically saw him everyday and i just cant seem to fathem hes really not here anymore. and he knows well knew that am hella into calling spirits and trying to talk to ghosts and shit and i want him to like give me a sign that theres more to life then just sudden death and rottening in a grave and that yur spirit will actually go on to something else or even better as some people say. i know i usually dont do blogs were i actually write and share shit but i had to vent.